teffyjeffy:

napstamuse:

guys, i am in desperate need of advice. Please help.

A couple months ago, one of my siblings came to me and told me they suspected they had DID, or dissociative identity disorder. We talked it out, I asked why they thought that, did some research together, etc. It went well.

Last night, the topic came up again, which eventually culminated in them introducing me to one of their “alters”, a totally different being that they sometimes switch to.

I am not a presumptuous person. They are also not the kind of person to make something up for attention or to seem cool or whatever. So unless I’m proven otherwise, I believe them.

The problem is that the instant I heard them speak as this alter, the slightly different voice and manner of speaking… Internally, I was filled with panic like I haven’t ever experienced. Outwardly, I kept it together until they left. But as soon as they did, I plummeted straight into a panic attack that was worse than I’ve ever had before. It took me over an hour to calm down.

And then this morning, as soon as I heard them speak, I started to panic again. I couldn’t even bring myself to look at them.

I have no idea what to do. I want to support them, and be there for them. My sibling and I are very very close and I don’t want to lose that. But I don’t know how to solve this.

I physically can’t see them the same way. I keep telling myself nothing has changed, they’re the same person they’ve always been, but it won’t stick. To me, it feels like I’ve lost my sibling. The dissonance between what i know is true and what my head keeps fixating on is driving me insane.

And above all, I feel like a monster for being this way. They trusted me enough to show something like this to me and now i can’t even look at them. I’m disgusting.

Please, please, please help me. I don’t know what to do.

Okay guys, please boost this. Napstamuse is one of my closest friends, and I’m scared because I don’t know how to help her through this. Please boost this so we can reach somebody who can help!!!