You never gained LOVE, but…

(So @sanolyn has inspired me to write this after ran idea she had that Frisk had gained a crush on Chara while underground, and would write diary entries to them after finding out they can never meet again on the Surface. This one’s a little short, but I hope it’s good anyway lol)

04/15/21x

Dear diary,

So…today’s the day I realise I’ll never be able to see you again. To be honest, I didn’t know how I should feel like, considering I’ve only really known you for two days while in the Underground. I think I feel…surprised? Not surprised like someone had made a loud noise to scare me, surprised as in I’ve lost something I didn’t know was important to me. So I guess that means you were important to me.

~Frisk

04/16/21x

Dear diary,

You know, I’ve been thinking. You know you meet someone and you feel a weird…fuzziness inside? Almost as if something is inside you, trying to hammer their way out? And you feel your mouth curl into a smile when you think of said someone? I think that’s what i’ve been feeling whenever I think of you. You make me feel happy, and calm…there’s a specific word for it, I know there is, but I don’t know if I’m wrong. It could just be a strong bond between me and you. I’ll think more about it later.

~Frisk

04/17/21x

Dear diary,

I was right. I talked to mom about it and she said exactly what I was thinking. I’m in love with you. But I don’t know if it’s true love or just infatuation. Am I making up my own little relationship between us without realising it? I wish you were here so I could confirm…

~Frisk

04/20/21x

Dear diary,

I’ve neglected these entries to give myself some thought. If I love you, am I too young? If YOU love ME, are you too old? No matter if these questions get answered or not, I’ll never be able to see you again…maybe if I reset? T̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶I̶’̶l̶l̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶a̶b̶l̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶

~Frisk

04/24/21x

Dear diary,

I’m sorry. I can’t believe I thought of that. Resetting just to see you isn’t worth it, even if it IS you. I can’t believe I ever even considered doing that. I’m so stupid.

~Frisk

04/25/21x

Dear diary,

I’m sorry about yesterday. I’ve calmed down and realised that I must come to terms with the fact that you’re gone. But that’s going to be hard, considering all of these feelings I didn’t know I had until the first entry I made. Sometimes, I wish I hadn’t left the Underground…but if I did that, no one would be here, and no one would be happy.

~Frisk

04/30/21x

Dear diary,

Only today have I realised that I’m basically talking to no one besides a book. I know this is going to sound silly, but it makes me feel better. It makes me feel like my feelings are of truth and not just some fake imaginations spawned from fairy tails. And I know that I’m writing some big sentences for a ten year old, but you SAID some pretty big sentences for a child yourself. Are you even a child? You’re a ghost, and I don’t know how long ago exactly you died. That should be another reason to get over you. Am I getting too obsessive?

~Frisk

05/01/21x

Dear diary,

I miss you. I don’t know how else to put it. It’s hard to come to terms with all of this, and I miss you. I want to see you again, I wanna hear your voice, I wanna feel your presence behind me, guiding me where to go and telling me what I need to do. I shouldn’t be feeling like this, I’m only ten. I need you here to help me. I need you.

~Frisk

05/05/21x

Dear [/////]

It’s funny. I’m acting selfish when I was the one to free the monsters from the Underground by being selfless. How ironic is that? And I usually love irony, but not here. I can’t keep acting selfish like this. I can’t keep beating myself up over this. I know you’d hate to see me like this, and you’d scold me. Neither of us would want that. You’ve helped me through a lot; through tough times, cruel thoughts, and experiences that I’ve almost forgotten about, all withing the span of two days. Me writing this makes it sound like I’m only dwelling on the past, and for these past few entries, I have. I realise that that’s wrong, especially when it concerns something like this. Staying in the past can sometimes be good, but more often then not, it’s bad. If I stay in the past, I can remember you and how funny and nice and helpful you’ve been, but I will start to become selfish again, and no one wants that. I need to move on, and I need to grow up. Funny thing to say for being a ten year old, I know, but it’s true. I still love you, and I’ll still miss you, but I’ll never forget you or the stuff you did to help me.

~Frisk

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This comic took me far longer to accomplish than originally planned.
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